Hi Lily
I’m sorry to read your post. It sounds like you need someone to talk to. Please contact The Icarus Trust who could tell you about how to find the support that you might need. We are a charity so it is a free service and its good to talk to someone who understands.
You can contact us on help@icarustrust.org or visit the website http://www.icarustrust.org
Al the best. I hope you can get some help.
