Hi Louise,
Thank you for posting your story which i’m sad to read. You are obviously having a very bad time right now.
From what I read your partner seems to be aggressive at times. If you feel at all worried about your safety can I suggest that you call the National Domestic Violence Helpline, as they will be best placed to give you advice on your situation and what to do next. Their number is 0808 2000 247 and it is free to call, open 24 hours a day, and calls are confidential.
Also you might like to contact us at The Icarus Trust. We are a charity that supports people, like yourself, who are having to deal with a partner’s addiction.
You can contact us on help@icarustrust.org or visit the website http://www.icarustrust.org
Wishing you all the best.