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January 10, 2022 at 8:48 am #7218hkmoddParticipant
Hi everyone,
Today I want to tell you about my experience, which practically ruined my whole 2021.
Let’s start from the premise that I currently smoke cannabis and that’s it (actually not even because now I’m in Thailand for 2 months with my girlfriend and I don’t even miss it)
It all started more or less in the summer of 2020 when a friend of mine made me try some LSD that he had managed to get hold of (synthesized well because they were the classic cards with drawings on them, not a random sheet).
I had a total of 6 LSD experiences of which only 2 times with a full dose (1 entire little square).
In October 2020 a very bad thing happened: I was traveling by train to go to my friends at 300km from me, once arrived at the station I was stopped with my friend by the police with anti-drug dogs.
Obviously, given the situation, I immediately declared that I had the grass with me and they made the report (Italy…)
The real problem is that in the train (I was an asshole) I had eaten 1 whole trip of LSD
So during the incident, the anxiety that I would already normally feel if I were searched by the police has increased so much
After the incident I couldn’t sleep for 2 days, I was shaking, but at least I managed not to make the cops understand that I was on acid, they just took the weed and that was it.
In those moments I felt the greatest fear of all my life so far, I felt my heart beating in my shoulders, my eyes were trembling, I was sweating cold and I flooded my shirt (I’m not one who sweats a lot).
The fact is that from that moment I felt extremely unstable in my head, doubts, fears, anxieties and anguish took place daily in my life. Plus the fact that I was embarking on a relationship with my current girlfriend but at the time I did not know what could happen between us.
One day, with her, after what happened in Florence, we decided (stupid of me) to take hallucinogenic mushrooms but this time in a safe place, where there was no one.
She was very well, I vomited almost immediately and in spite of that the effect went up anyway….
I don’t know guys… I felt “saturated” with psychedelic mushrooms… as if I was feeling too much anxiety
I heard an inner voice telling me not to take mushrooms that day but I didn’t listen to it and I did my own thing, with the result that from that day until now (I think) a psychosomatic process has been created in my brain according to which I would ALWAYS vomit.
From January 2021 to September/October 2021 I had feelings of vomiting EVERY DAY, every morning and every evening.
A “high and low” feeling, it would come and go, go and come….
Today what is left of this feeling is just a heartburn, which I keep under control with natural bach flower drops and sometimes when necessary taking Maalox
I have never had a real answer to my doubts, what I am telling you are only my assumptions and the problem is not 100% solved…. If I drink coffee I am sick, if I drink milk I am sick, if I eat spicy I am sick, if I eat a lot of Mcdonald’s food I am sick.
Even in the summer of 2021 I developed a social anxiety that made me stop going out (except for work…) with my friends because every time I went to a bar and drank a beer I felt terrible.
Today I am in Thailand for 2 months and it seems that the heat, the peace and eating only vegetables or light foods is really helping me with my problem.
However, 2021 will always remain a dark memory in my life, a year ruined.
Now I ask you: do you think it was because of the hallucinogenic mushrooms/trips in October? Because it seems like the more time goes by, the MORE slowly my problem goes away.
It was already easing up before I left for Thailand, but sometimes I still get a few bouts of extreme heartburn.
I’ve scheduled a gastroscopy in March to investigate my stomach, since I used to be able to drink coffee and alcohol with ease (and I’m not an alcoholic at all, I’m talking about even one beer with company)
It’s really hard for me to talk about this and it’s the first time I’ve sought help from the outside world other than my girlfriend or friends
I am 22 years old.
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