[drivebunny]

I’m new to here and this is the first place I’ve been able to speak about me. My 50yr old fiance is alcohol dependent and about to go through a detox. I’m almost begging the nurses not to do it at home. I NEED him to go away and do it. Recently he has become very verbally abusive and it hurts so much. I have MS and the stress has put me into 2 relapses and I’m really struggling now. I feel like the past few months have been all about him and I’ve just been there, in the background holding everything together and taking his abuse. I loved this man so much we were getting married on 9th September but I had to cancel, I can’t start out married life like this. I have absolutely no one to talk to and no one around me can point me in a direction where I can get help. He has nurses and counselors and I have myself. My family just say get rid, they’ve forgotten the amazing man behind the alcoholic. I’m just so lost and lonely and don’t have a clue where to turn. How can it be possible to love someone so much yet hate them at the same time? I’m sorry for the essay, I’m just reaching out and hoping someone can help me. xx

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