I have no support at all and deflating day by day as some people ie my parents etc dont seem to want me to forget even after all this time it seems as though i have to pay for my wrongs for the rest of my life. I find with relationships i take pity on them and seem to want to look after them ywt i never get this in return. i have no idea looking forward and cry over the simple things and dwell on the past and the life i completetly threw away. Myself and ex husband are on nice talking terms and i hear through my childrem shes not exactly into kids as has none herself and hope if i prove myself be that person i once was will he come home. ?