Hi,
Reading your post, I do understand what a difficult situation you are in and I feel really sorry that you are feeling so uncertain.
If you think it would help please contact The Icarus Trust. We are a charity that supports people who are dealing with the impact of a family member or friend’s addiction. Talking through your situation with one of our trained and experienced volunteers might help you to know what to do next.
You can contact us on help@icarustrust.org or visit the website http://www.icarustrust.org
All the best. I hope this helps.