I am sorry to hear that you are suffering from depression and the effect your partner’s addiction is having on your health and your life.
If you want to talk to people who have gone through the same experiences are you, I work for the Icarus Trust, a charity set up to support friends, partners and families of addicts (i.e. people like you).
We have experienced volunteers called Family Friends who you can contact for support. It is a free service. You can email us on help@icarustrust.org or visit our website http://www.icarustrust.org
I hope you will consider contacting my charity to help you to get the support you need.
Charlotte