My partner is loving kind everything you could ask for especially after escaping domestic abuse he supported me through my escape but he has a cocaine addiction got worse afterwards had minor surgery then I had the miscarriage which upset us both he works full time spends all weekend in bed sleeping then blames me for keeping him awake due to moving to much in my sleep we live with his parents I told his mum we just monitoring it but I’m scared to try wake him incase he snaps he would never hurt me but every time I question him about how much he doing he gets defensive I stuck I love him every time I mention I want to postpone the wedding he cries and thinks I’m calling it off I don’t know what to do it killing me inside feel so alone how can I help him see he is killing himself I lost a friend to cocaine sorry to moan xxx