i am married to an alcoholic, he has terrible rages where verbally abuses me, tries to turn me against my family and is basically a nasty piece of work, last night was the last straw and i ended up driving round in the dark for an hour just to get away from his nastiness, my problem is this, my son has said he will help me leave and help me find somewhere to live but i feel that i do not want to leave my home and it should be my husband that goes , i have 2 dogs who i will not be parted from and it will be hard to find rented accommodation where i can take them with me , if feel as if i have to make a choice between my son or my husband as i’m pretty sure that if I dont leave /kick my husband out, my son has more of less said he will wash his hand of me as this has been going on for many years. I am also convinced that if my husband and i separate it will kill him as he will just drink himself to death and then i will have that on my conscience for ever more …. i’m too scared to leave and too scared to stay ..