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my son had been depressed for a good few months and weight had dropped off him, I thought he was anorexic but could get no help as he is an adult. However to my shock and total amazement I found he was actually taking drugs(methdrone) after finding evidence in room. We spoke and said we would support him and do anything it took to help but he continued to use and oct last year had a drug induced psychotic breakdown. The help in our area is disgraceful and we battled on with his paranoia, hallucinations and he tried to rip up bedroom floorboards and paper off wall looking for cameras spying on him. We finally got him under the Early Intervention Team for psychosis but he has refused to engage with offers of CBT and counselling. He is in room 24/7 only going out to get drugs and I admit I have tried to control and locked car up, took his credit cards but he has still manged to get stuff. he is left ‘hearing voices’ which he feels he needs to take stuff so he can hear what they are saying about him and as it is all people known to him he has cut ties with family and friends. I no longer have any life and feel that i cant leave him and make it easy for him and I cannot condone drugs under my roof but he still manges to take and then I have to pick up the pieces of watching him suffer, withdraw, internet down as he is looking for people spying on him. My husband and I are constantly falling out about him and no one professional is helping, he is also such a devious liar that he presents perfectly well and will tell them nothing . I dont know what to do. I know he will use no matter what I do but it is in my house and it is permanently damaging his mind each time he uses. He was told he was very unfortunate and his brain couldnt handle the drug. I cannot trust him and while I hate him locking self away in room wasting life I dread him going out the door . I dont feel I can have a weekend away or even a night out as I dont know what he will be up to. I tried to make him homeless but he overdosed on his anti psychotic meds and he takes no responsibility for taking them at home. If dont give them to him he doesnt take. I am smothering him and now resent him and I dont know what to do

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