Hi Jai, welcome to the forum.
I read your story last night and thought that maybe a person in recovery would have replied to you.
If you read the other threads, particularly Danman83, Bt1978 and jaynhissay, they all are people in recovery offering good advice and support.
All the people here are affected by addiction one way or the other.
My son has alcohol and cocaine addictions and reached out for help last year. He spoke to doctor first, then joined AA and CA meetings, currently online.
Not gonna lie, it’s been hard for him, relapsed a few times, but this is normal. The homepage and Icarus trust offers advice too.
It can be done, and you’ve taken the first step in admitting you have a problem and seeking help, so be proud of yourself for that!
Confide in someone close, if not the fellowship in the AA and CA are so supportive of each other.
My son is currently 90+ days clean, so it can be done.
You need faith, hope and strength and with the encouragement of others , you’ll get there!
I wish you well
Keep posting
Lx