[noctumbral]

We’ve been together for over a year, and he means the absolute world to me. I met him after I split with my emotionally abusive ex husband and he was everything I needed in my life. So funny, charming, full of love and motivation ( and hot as f***k) so hot and different that I was willing to look past all these red flags. He has an addition to stimulants (coke/mcat) and while I like to dabble occasionally for fun he wants to do it all the time and for days on end. It’s really wearing me down.

I feel so isolated because I moved in with him and his flatmate (who also does coke) and I’m just waiting for him to grow up. We just literally spent a week not talking because he took drone and games 24/7 and didn’t sleep for days, crashes into bed this morning like it’s no big deal even though now I have to walk his dog all damn day.

We literally *just had a massive bust up about this a week ago because I left to stay with friends for a few days, knowing he was starting back at work so to *please be *sensible*, he ends up taking a bunch of drone and misses work which started at 10 fucking am.

I’m in love with a manchild and I don’t know how much more I can take

He just can’t seem to do moderation.

Lockdown has made this 100 percent worse because he has nothing to do and selling is easy money that’s supplemented our less than desirable lockdown income.

Sorry if any of this is nonsensical I woke up in a panic and cried for about an hour. This sucks. 🙁

[kel1]

Taking drugs in moderation? You mean recreational right! The trouble with this perception is firstly, “doing drugs for enjoyment” there is no enjoyment when you underpin substance misuse, so that line of thinking is destructive! Secondly, recreational use with a powerful substance such as cocaine hardly ever really happens! The problem is as I’m sure you’re aware that one always leads to another, and another and before you know it “boom” an addict is born!

Sounds like you’re living the dream right now, In a flat with two addicts ????. No wonder you’re unhappy, that sounds miserable to me. One year isn’t very long, however you’ve fallen in love with the guy, so the heart wants what it wants! Until he wants help though there’s not much you can do, and besides if you’ve dabbled with him then I’d say you’ve lost a bargaining tool here also, at the very least the moral high ground!

I’m sorry you’ve had it tough with your ex husband, I’m wondering whether or not that contributed to your choice in this man?

Time for healing and decisions for you.

Keep talking and more importantly please consider this as a turning point in your life. If he isn’t willing to get help then get out and focus on you. X

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