Hi,
Thank you for sharing your story. I’m so sorry that your partner’s drug and alcohol habit is affecting you so badly and making you ill. If you would like some help please contact us at Icarus Trust. We are a charity that offers support to people like you, dealing with addiction in their family. If you get in touch one of our trained and experienced Family Friends would talk with you and may be that would help you to move forward.
You can contact us on contact@icarustrust.org
Good luck.