[jerry007]

Hi All,

New to this site, been reading through some stories and thought it might help to get mine out there to see thoughts of outsiders not family and friends.

I have been with my husband for 12 years, married for 4. We had our first son in January so he’s 6 months old and the cutest little thing you could ask for.

We have had the most amazing holiday and live together, then 2.5 years ago my husbands business got in trouble. I believe this is when he started to lie about stuff to me.

A year ago he was meant to go bankrupt and kept putting it off. I must add we have both lost close family in the last few years also which took a toll on us. But we adored each other and what I thought we where so in love, we would always be there for each other.

In sept my best friend was diagnosed terminally ill so I have been trying to be brave while pregnant through all of this.

My husband started to become distant and withdrawn about 5 months ago, I thought he stopped loving me after the baby arrived.

But he would tell me I was the most perfect mother and wife that anyone could ask for. About 3 months ago I came home from a weekend away and he was hungover on the couch I suggested he had done drugs as I had never seen him this bad. He flipped and went mad, after that we spoke and he broke down and he told me he was severely depressed and would I help him. I did everything I could, arranged drs apps which he wouldn’t go to, I read books which he didn’t read. I didn’t ask for a penny although I was on maternity. I found out in 6 weeks alone he has £6000 unaccounted for. I did everything in my power to make his life simple.

Then two weeks ago I was told he was having cocaine in work all day and when he was working late or stuck in traffic he was really at the pub getting off his face. Then coming home to me and the baby. This was sent to me from a third party.

That day I left I couldn’t take no more especially for my baby.

Since then he hasn’t apologised, he hasn’t tried to be in contact. We arranged a meeting and he went the pub instead and when I finally seen him he was horrible to me and stormed out.

Since I left he has been living with family and got a new job with the same people, he just seems to be getting on with his life.

I was adamant I wouldn’t ever go back, but I can’t stop loving him. He is my husband and my baby’s daddy but the question is does he want me. He hasn’t even asked about his boy which devastates me each day.

Sorry to go on but I just feel so let down and hurt by the whole situation.

[icarus-trust]

I’m really sorry to read your post and see what you are dealing with at the moment. Your husband’s addiction and losing people close to you must be so hard especially when you have just had a baby. I can see why you feel so hurt and let down.

You might like to get in touch with us at Icarus Trust as we are a charity that provides support for people who are going through similar things to yourself. If you contact us I can put you in touch with one of our trained and experienced people who would listen to you and offer some support.

You can contact Icarus Trust on help@icarustrust.org or visit our website http://www.icarustrst.org

All the best.

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