I’m really sorry to read your post and see what you are dealing with at the moment. Your husband’s addiction and losing people close to you must be so hard especially when you have just had a baby. I can see why you feel so hurt and let down.
You might like to get in touch with us at Icarus Trust as we are a charity that provides support for people who are going through similar things to yourself. If you contact us I can put you in touch with one of our trained and experienced people who would listen to you and offer some support.
You can contact Icarus Trust on help@icarustrust.org or visit our website http://www.icarustrst.org
All the best.