Glad I found this site and being able to feel that other people will understand how I feel even though this was several years ago .
I lost my dad some years ago to drugs, had been an ongoing issue since I was a small child with periods of abstinence but ultimately reverted back and he was under 50 when he died.
I have issues of guilt as I was in touch with him and every day, dealing with a&e visits and long term issues . I had kind of
had enough and didn’t visit him and found he dead two days later .
I know I couldn’t have done anything but just hits me and gets a bit overwhelming sometimes . I miss him, am angry with him and with myself