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Hi I just want to share my story to see if anyone can relate as I’m having a really hard time at the moment.

Ok so me and my partner have been in a relationship for 4 years, I never really realised the extent of his drinking till about 6 to 8 months in.

He is the most caring and loving person when he is sober but when he is drunk he is a monster. He has never physically hurt me but the insults and accusations have cut deep into me over the years.

I feel partly to blame as I should have left years ago when I saw the signs but I just carried on enabling his drinking and carrying the insults at the back of my mind and kept letting him wet my bed daily thinking but He’s great when he’s sober!

Well the last year has been a year of ups and downs and we have been living apart for the most of that with him staying a few nights here and there…..even that has proved damaging as he accuses me of doing things I haven’t done, blames all the problems in the relationship are due to me spending more time with family and friends and my kids get the brunt of his insults too.

Basically everything is everybody else’s fault. He will apologise but it’s and apology with a I’m sorry but……and then it will be swung round on me again.

I’m just physically and mentally broken, we split two weeks ago and had been talking fine and he kind of admitted he drunk too much but last night was the final straw, my heads in peices. He accidentally called me at 2am this morning then realised and started shouting my name down the phone thinking I’d called him because he was that intoxicated then hurled a load of abuse at me and told me to kill myself.

I feel so stupid for thinking things would get better and now I’m on medication for depression and anxiety due to all this rubbish.

A lot more been said and done in the relationship but I’d be here forever.

Thanks for reading

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