Hi Sandy,
Thank you for sharing your story. Please don’t feel bad about yourself. What you are going through is really difficult and I wonder if you would like to talk through how you are feeling with someone who would understand?
The Icarus Trust is a charity that supports people like yourself who are dealing with a family member’s addiction. We have trained and experienced volunteers who you could talk with. We call them our ‘Family Friends.’ I hope you might find talking with one of them would help you to make sense of how you are feeling and find a way ahead. You could also find out from them what other help is available for your mum as well as yourself.
You can contact us on help@icarustrust.org or visit the website http://www.icarustrust.org
I hope that you find this helpful. Good luck.