Hi Megan
Welcome to the forum, everyone here has a loved one with addictions and also some people in recovery offering support and advice.
Thank you for sharing your story , I’m so sorry to hear that you are going through a difficult time with your mum.
Addiction is a horrible illness – it turns your loved one into people you don’t know. Makes them selfish and nasty- especially to those closest.
My 29yr son has alcohol and cocaine addictions- when it was at it’s worst, I felt was mourning the loss of the son I had- before Addiction. Its so very sad.
Until they themselves realise they want help and support – you cannot force them into it.
Fortunately my son came to us just before he was about to lose everything.
He joined AA and CA groups and attends regular meetings. He worked the 12 step program and he is currently 1 yr clean.
I wanted you to know that there’s light at the end of the tunnel .
Drugfam , Icarus Trust and the Adfam homepage also offer support and advice.
In the meantime, please look after your own health and well-being.
Take care Megan
Lx ❤️