Hi,
Thanks for posting your story. I am sorry that you are still having to deal with the impact of taking cocaine even though you must have been very strong to have given it up for several years.
If you would like to talk with someone who would understand what you are going through please contact The Icarus Trust. We are a charity and offer the free service of our experienced trained volunteers who you could talk with. They may also be able to sign post you to other services that might help.
It may also be good to talk to your GP if you haven;t already done so.
You can contact us on help@icarustrust.org or visit the website http://www.icarustrust.org
Good luck.