im new to all this and need someone to talk to. Im 25 years old and pregnant with my first baby. My mother has drank since I can remember and is what ive found is called a “maintenance drinker”. Im not even sure what kind of help im after as im just so angry at her. I spend my day crying which I know isnt good for my baby and all I want is my mam back. I feel so scared and alone all of the time. She denys her drinking and says that its in my head that I can smell it on her. She has had help in the past but always goes back to it. Sorry if im not making sense. I feel like im at a dead end and im exhausted. I can physically speak to anyone as all I do is choke up and cry