[bluexxx]

I’m walking on eggshells too scared to step on the cracks,
I’m constantly on edge always watching my back,
Surrounded by fears of another drunken attack
I wonder I seek to find some peace
But nothing gets better the pain never cease
I pray I wish I dream and I cry
But my home is a warzone I get scared at night.
I hear the ticking inside of his head
I curl up like a baby inside of my bed
Another night of drunken fights is something I dread
I hear bottles clinking smoke feels the air
Inside im dying as i cry out whos there,
I hear him banging clashing his fists
The smell makes me sick
I breath quitely trying not to make a sound
I crumbling as his footsteps hit the ground,
I pray to god to take me to the skies above
Please dont leave me here with my brother who knows nothing of love, the devil in the flesh keeps showing up, I have had enough.
I stay strong for my parents I do all this for you
But inside I’m am pleading please love me too
Stealing and pleading and secretly bleeding you dry
Losing and hiding and watching us cry
Sometimes I wish if only I’d die
Waking up everyday with hope in my heart
That he might just change
But I find him with vomit and sweating again
Face down on the floor in his bedroom
Chocking and inhaling the suffocating fumes
The horror inside I feel when I see
My brother is slowly dying in front of me
As I pick him up and he comes round
My good old heart is smashed to the ground
Get out get out get out of my room
You said as I tried to help you
I heard you smash against the wall
You yelled as you blamed us for it all
The cans the shits the smell spills in
Your screaming I’m screaming the anger within
I’m a shell a scared little girl all because of you
I was trying to save you brother from yourself but you have killed you.
You’ve killed us too, your poising our love
Our home our hearts
And all this horror is tearing us apart
You love the bottle more then us
Our love for you is not enough
If you had your way dear brother
You’d live alone
But where too scared to leave u on your own
Your nothing but skin and bones
You don’t wash now you don’t even eat
There is nothing left except the ciggerets u eat.
Your like a corpse rotting underneath
If you leave you will die buT if u stay we can try
But I’m afraid things will not change if I stay
I love you dear brother but it hurts me this way
You treat me like a withdrawal symptom
You treat me like a dog
You treat me like i am nothing but I’ve done nothing wrong. I am sick of being trapped like a bird without a song.
Release me from this hell
I beg you anyone
I can’t do this anymore I am done
You won
You won brother x

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