[nanny-ger]

Hello, I am feeling really low and sad right now. My only son who I raised alone has alcohol addiction and previously drugs although I am unsure about that now as I had to find the strength to cut him out of my life as it was totally destroying me. I was living a nightmare of fear for several years and I I was aware that all I was doing was enabling him. I have prayed and hoped and begged to no avail.

The accompanying hell of prison visits, child protection meetings and the associated nightmare events of addiction are permanently with me although I try hard to compartmentalise for the sake of my sanity. As a mother, you never stop loving your child and my heart breaks for the losses associated with his addictions and for the pain caused to him and others. I have been particularly sad today and just needed to share. I continue to have hope, that is all I have left now. Thank you for the opportunity to share, I feel so very alone with it all.

[lindyloo]

Hi Nanny ger,

Welcome to the forum. I just posted on the Theresa thread, as there are several of us mums all with sons with addictions.

I was sad to read your story, thank you for sharing. I just wanted you to know that others care and want life to be better for you and your son.

I don’t have all the answers either, but the adfam homepage has support, also the Icarus trust offers advice and has counselling services i understand.

We all understand the heartbreak you are going through, hopefully we can be here for each other.

I used to get really upset when my son was using, it was like I was grieving for the son I used to have, if that makes sense.

Please stay strong and positive, seek advice and support for yourself in the meantime.

Take care, keep in touch read the stories on the Theresa thread you won’t feel alone.

Lx

[icarus-trust]

Thank you for posting your story which i found so sad to read. You sound so strong after all you’ve been through and I’m sorry you’re feeling low and alone today.

I work for a charity called Icarus Trust which works with families aroun those with addictions. if you feel it would be helpful to talk with someone please contact us and you can be put in touch with one of our Family Friends. These are our experienced trained people who are very good listeners and would let you know what other support there is for you. may be talking with one of them would help you not to feel so alone.

You can contact Icarus Trust on help@icarustrust.org or visit our website http://www.icarustrust.org

All the best to you.

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