Hi, You’re not alone and although the issues I have with my son are slightly different, We, as mothers bear similar pain and the hurt you are going through is as real and profound as any other stories we may read…it’s all about our beloved children and no matter what we do it’s never enough. Never enough means you go on forever until you become ill (like I could) If your mind tells you ‘this has to end’ then that’s what you have to do ~ again, like me ~ There’s something I have to do and it won’t be easy.
I do believe that ‘feeding our kids’ is the thing mum’s should do BUT never to feed the habit our kids get in to. You have been a better mother than many other mother’s would have been…your boy is a full grown man and he is now responsible (like mine should be too) So, We need to go on because we have loved, cared for and nurtured. You need a rest from this. You need to go on x