[AaronRyan20]

I am not a user but someone who was abused staying with a user. He was the most politest man I had ever known. But was also a fun drunk . All his friends did cocaine and he did not think he had any problem. Until one day  i confronted him about spending time with his ex – did not know how to react and strangulated me. He called off the relationship as he didnt think i was bringing best in him . Its now i realise all his lies of i snort once a while was not true and it was most of the time. It was not me not bringing the best out of him . It was the coke doing its magic.

I am trying to highlight the road between being a fun drunk to being an abuser or something else is so slippery with this drug. Get all the help you can get before you and people around you are destroyed.

[AaronRyan20]

<p class=”MsoNormal” style=”margin: 0cm; line-height: normal; font-size: 11pt; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif; color: #000000; background-image: initial; background-position: initial; background-size: initial; background-repeat: initial; background-attachment: initial; background-origin: initial; background-clip: initial;”><span style=”font-size: 11.5pt; font-family: ‘inherit’, serif; color: #050505;”>Brand new here and it’s all a bit overwhelming.</span></p>
<p class=”MsoNormal” style=”margin: 0cm; line-height: normal; font-size: 11pt; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif; color: #000000; background-image: initial; background-position: initial; background-size: initial; background-repeat: initial; background-attachment: initial; background-origin: initial; background-clip: initial;”><span style=”font-size: 11.5pt; font-family: ‘inherit’, serif; color: #050505;”>Dated a man for 10 months. Meant a lot to me and I had dreams with him. So polite – never touched me. But was always cocky when drinking. Early on sensed the drinking problem which we discussed he’d reduce. Then snorting became apparent. I was told it’s a once in a while thing and I believed it. He started not spending weekends with me but with his friends day drinking and next day used to be a write off in bed. I discovered he was meeting his ex while we were together. Confronted him. He was under the influence that day, probably off his face. He didn’t know how to react and ended up strangulating me. He left me in the hospital.</span></p>
<p class=”MsoNormal” style=”margin: 0cm; line-height: normal; font-size: 11pt; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif; color: #000000; background-image: initial; background-position: initial; background-size: initial; background-repeat: initial; background-attachment: initial; background-origin: initial; background-clip: initial;”><span style=”font-size: 11.5pt; font-family: ‘inherit’, serif; color: #050505;”>He called the relationship off the next day. I tried getting back but he refused to see me. It’s been 4 months and I couldn’t not understand what happened to this beautiful man who wanted nothing but to be with me all the time. I have so much longing and love for that man which has taken me towards being depressed and anxious. I opened up recently to my friends who helped me realised it was not once in a while thing. The more I read the more it all makes sense. All the flags for regular use was there. I just didn’t know and thought it’s just drinks.</span></p>
<p class=”MsoNormal” style=”margin: 0cm; line-height: normal; font-size: 11pt; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif; color: #000000; background-image: initial; background-position: initial; background-size: initial; background-repeat: initial; background-attachment: initial; background-origin: initial; background-clip: initial;”><span style=”font-size: 11.5pt; font-family: ‘inherit’, serif; color: #050505;”>I now am seeking help with therapy and knowing and reading about addiction is overwhelming me. I’m a well travelled man – sane and sorted in life. I feel like I was not only cheated but emotionally lied to constantly – and how could I not see it. The entire year feels like a delusion and I could not see his addiction. He’s moved on and I see him in the city with different guys. It hurts so much I’ve stopped going out all together.</span></p>
<p class=”MsoNormal” style=”margin: 0cm; line-height: normal; font-size: 11pt; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif; color: #000000; background-image: initial; background-position: initial; background-size: initial; background-repeat: initial; background-attachment: initial; background-origin: initial; background-clip: initial;”><span style=”font-size: 11.5pt; font-family: ‘inherit’, serif; color: #050505;”>I am hoping to hear and reading stories here to help me understand the cheating the lying and snorts & drinks being important to him than me. It might sound selfish. I am looking for assurances that my life would have been a living hell with him and while this hurts now – it’s probably for best that he himself broke up with him.</span></p>

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