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Yes i have.. and long story short. I started 8 year ago. Taking it goin out for a while. But then i already become attached and we just stayed in at weekends. So i started having it in the house. I would never feel depressed and suicidal coming down off it for 1st few year. Then a couple of year ago. It made me depressed and suicidal. And i cried 1 morning, so i text my mum n told her everything and i asked for help. She was devastated but shes texting all the time and onto my gf as well lol. I started arguments without KNOWING so id go get some as an excuse. Your brain is so clever it craves it when u dont know. This is emotional relapse. Its hard. But ive learned when it comes.and you have treat it like an abusive ex. And tell my self its over.. do u really want to go back. These next months im dreading. But me and my gf have the kids bdays coming up and were going turkey. So shes staying with me till july at weekends and helping me decorate so i dont slip up.ive give her a lot of stick in the past. But shes stood by me through a lot.
Thats what im worried about. It creeping up. But im better prepared this time. And i dont want to mess up again. I feel so much better and positive and less anxiety now
It could be a bit of both, ive said am leaving a few times because its not fair on my gf and kids. But she says .. so your leaving us all.. so ive stayed. But the nagging is because , its only my own fault, i deserve it. But u need to sort your self out 1st. If hes left or leaves. He will just get worse on it.
I dont blame you. Were i live in bolton its rife with it.. its everywere. Even my sons mates are on it at school and ketermine. 15 years old and on coke and ketermine. If i ever go out in town which i never do. All you hear in the toilets is sniffing. It does ruin lifes and familys. And some who have it alot dont even know there an addict.
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Ive had councilling sessions but there at night, and my gf is at work till 9 . The n i.have go to work at 9 for my nightshift.
So its hard to get to meetings.
And Georgia dont worry what people think, your just being a good gf and help ing your bf.
Ive got a question for you both.. lol
Case scenario.. your both leave your partners.. and meet 2 new guys…and they take coke aswell.. and you like them alot.. would you take it futher the relationship or end it?
Because coke is everywere and i hate that it is.
Sorry for the late reply only just seen it.. ye is suppose i miss the rush.. it makes u feel good. But then the downwers are the worst things ever ive come across. Fuk me 700.. think how many hols you could of gone on lol. Ive not told my gf this.. but i always say i just got 1. But in fact it was 2 or 3. 120 just wasted like that. Am doing much better now tho. And i feel great. Im just worried now. If it comes back and i have no control.and i let everyone down.but im doing good now. Thanks. How you doing anyway
Well im not getting much cravings and in my dreams im not having as many were am taking coke in them. But i cant really tell. Because i dont know how i would be without them after a month? If u get me?
But for 12quid for 2 tubs… you might as well try them. As its 40quid for a gram of coke! So what have u got to lose???
But im feeling a lot better. More positive, and more determined
So they feel like they are.
Has he still not been in touch? Are you ok? Its not good when its your own son. I hope he gets in touch soon. Or you try and go to see him.
I feel your pain mate . Ive been doing it 8 years every couple of week on fridays mainly alone in the house. Feeling depressed and suicidal.
Weekend in bed not doing out with the kids. Or i could of spent that money on the kids.
Least now you have addmited your an addict you can get help mate.
I havent had it since new year..
U need delete everyone out your phone to do with coke. You need stay in and stay awsy from everyone with coke. You need change your life around, routine. Ive started reading books and i never read.watch louise clarke on you tube crack cocaine part 123. Shes great and will give u great advice.
Its hard you will have dreams about using.and i cant say am clean now, because im not. Ive not had it for 4 week now. I feel so much better. My gf is ready to leave if i have it again.
Stay positive mate. Ignore negative thought, or that devil on your shoulder saying just get 1 , just have a little bit. You be ok..coz u know thats not true!
How often do u use mate?
I think your right about the pills.. that he really had coke. The amount of times i said to my gf ill stop and i really wanted to! I just wasnt prepared or did enough research.
He needs to do a prevention plan.
Im more prepared and determained now and even tho ive had it once a month or once a week. I finally admitted i was an addict new years eve and then stayed up all night planning my month ahead how to fix it. When i set my self targets and goals its a lot easier.. and my names danny lol dnt matter about 1st names haha how u feeling anyway now?
Not been on for a while. Ive been mad busy decorating. But i hope your alright b8988. Do you have a name because you sound like a droid out of star wars lol.. anyway do whats best for you and your kids. The kids should always come 1st. And your health. He obviously doesnt want to stop. And youve tried your best.