[jaynhissay]

Bump I hope your son is found safe and well I really do! I’ve experienced drug induced psychosis and it’s not a nice place to be at all. What drugs does your son use?

[jaynhissay]

Hi everyone I’m sorry for the delay in replying I’ve just got home from work. Jem I’m so sorry to hear that your mum is poorly I hope she makes a quick recovery and I am sure the extra pressure on you and the rest of the family is huge so please try to take care of yourself in all of this.

In response to Jenny and bump when you asked what my rock bottom was the honest truth is I had that many times when I thought I was as low as I could go but I’m not sure if this is true for every addict but I used to just adapt to the situations I found myself in and carry on. I did a residential rehab and was clean for nearly 9 months but relapsed just before Xmas. What I found to be really helpful from my mum especially was just been able to speak to her about the intensity of the cravings for drugs and I don’t think she was able to relate to the feelings personally but I think it helped her to see how passionate ( I couldn’t think of another word) and animated I used to get when trying to explain how i was feeling.

It’s must be so difficult to watch a loved one destroying themselves but until the addicts have had enough of it all and are willing to be open and honest with everyone who is a part of their lives and cut out the people who are associated with that world the only thing I think you can do to help further is try and take good care of yourself and the rest of the family so that when they are ready your ready too. I knew I was hurting my mum and causing her to be ill and I used to use more drugs in the hope of blanking that out but I think it’s so important that for us addicts to get an idea of what your going through and I would recommend putting it in writing to them. I found that I didn’t want to listen if I was being told but it was different when it was in writing.

Did you get to the truth about the possible overdose bump?

[jaynhissay]

Thank you so much for your kind words and encouragement. I am keeping everything crossed that your boys can do what they need to in order for them to recover and escape from the world of active addiction

[jaynhissay]

Hello everyone. I’ve spent a good while reading through this post in full and it has been a difficult thing to read if I’m honest.

I’m an addict that has been using drugs in one form or another for the last 21 years. Although I’m not using any class A drugs at the moment I don’t class myself as being in recovery because I am smoking cannabis still but I’m finding a couple of joints in the evening when I’ve finished work is keeping me away from the crack and heroin and although the cannabis use isn’t an ideal solution it’s the lesser of two evils. When I read the way that you have been affected by the behaviour of the addicts in your lives it made me realise how much pain and suffering I have caused the people who have been supporting me over all these years. So much so that I just rung my mum to let her know how much she means to me.

I know it’s difficult for a non addict to understand what being an addict is like and how it makes the way we function and think all about the drugs but what I didn’t realise was just how much I didn’t understand the feelings of the family and friends that have had to deal with my addiction and everything that goes with it.

I’m sorry if this post doesn’t make much sense to anyone but I felt compelled to write something just to acknowledge the sacrifices you have all made in a financial, emotional and personal way. I’d like to wish everyone all the very best and I hope your situations improve and you and the addicts in your lives get the help you deserve. I know people in active addiction can be the most vile and disgusting form of a human being there is but I also know that is the drugs and not the person. I hope you all get your loved ones back to the people you know they can be. I don’t know if it would help at all but if I can answer any questions or anything like that I am happy to.

Thanks for allowing me to get this off my chest x

[jaynhissay]

Hi Tina

I’ve just seen your post. I’m sorry to hear that your struggling with your situation. It must be very difficult for you. Have you spoken to your husband about the possibility of you telling his family about his use of cannabis?

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