[jenasay]

Hello,

Finding this forum is a blessing sent from Heaven. Here I am 3 months away from turning 50 and starting over. My lovely boyfriend of 8 years has ruined his life with his alcohol addiction. It’s been a very painful process watching him drink himself to death. August 21 2022 I saved his life: he was in ICU for 6 days as he was treated for severe alcohol withdrawal. He had a stroke and had a severe seizure and I had to do CPR to get him to breahe. I always thought he would die in his sleep from drinking so much. I’m very traumatized by watching him almost die in my arms. Watching him slowly drift away has been emotionally exhausting. He was discharged and opened a bottle of Bollinger Champagne to celebrate the fact that he was still alive. Then the drinking all day and night started again. It took alot for me to pack a few things and walk out the door while he was sitting drunk at the dinner table. He is defenseless against this disease without the tools he desperately needs. I have been alone for years waiting for him to stop drinking and waiting for him to get out of bed before 4pm. My life has suffered immensely. I jumped off the roller coaster finally September 5 to start the process of getting my life back. Support from my friends has been coming in every form imaginable. I miss my home, so I thought. But I have realized I have my FREEDOM now to start my healing process.

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