Hi Amanda. I can relate so much to your story. My son is 34 and your article has been the only one I can truly relate to. I have been through the same as you for 7 years now and I’m now at my wits end. My last tactic and desperation to help him was tonight but in my heart I know that whatever we say or try to do for them will be to no avail. Like you, I don’t feel guilty, just so very very sad after all he’s gone through with 3 months rehab and slowly slipping back to the addiction. I’m not going to repeat your words, I felt the same as you reading through your story and you are the only person (as a mother) that I have felt a connection with after 7 years of struggling the same emotions as you have. My heart goes out to you and It has helped me to know that I’m not the only one feeling all the emotions that you have mentioned in your story. My thoughts are with you and I hope that in some small way I’ve helped you like you have helped me tonight after reading your post. Be strong, stay in control and take one day at a time. Bless you. Jo x