[karen111]

Thank you for your reply. I believe it was Xmas as everything changed in January and going through account etc you could see the spending pattern. He has told me so much, I guess I wonder what would be the point of him lying now. He was only able to spend that much as we have it. Which now feels like a bit of a curse. At first I took control of money but reality is if he relapsed he would just run up debt. He knows if he touches coke or any other drug again me and boys are gone for good. One relapse is one too many with 2 young kids. He didn’t know he would get addicted but now he has a crystal ball to see what the future would hold. I can’t imagine how hard it is to beat an addiction. I hope you manage to find a way.

I’ve never worried about him cheating and believe if he stays sober he won’t. He didn’t do it as a social thing. That’s why I never suspected as always thought it was a party drug and he just stayed up all night looking depressed.

I’m hoping I feel better in time and can see him as I did before all this again.

Hope the reading keeps working as a distraction for you. I’ve read way more about addiction etc than I ever wanted to know. Hopefully remembering what it can take from you (£’s, self control, sense of worth, family, friends etc) will show you it’s not worth it.

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