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Thank you. I’m sorry that you had no choice but to start over but pleased you are finding ways to rebuild your life.. my partners addiction has been ongoing for the best part of 10 years.. although we’ve been together for 3, we’ve only lived together full time for about 18months.. before we lived together I didn’t really appreciate the severity of his addiction, sounds a bit naive really. I knew he was an addict, don’t get me wrong, but as we had separate homes it never really affected me that much other than not hearing for him for a few days at a time and plans etc being missed. I never saw him in the states I do now.. sometimes he can go up to 6 weeks without using.. and sometimes it’s every couple of weeks for maybe 2 -3 days, sometimes less. This time, for whatever reason it was 8 nights, 7 days. I don’t know how he’s still alive really.. last year he had a huge accident while driving under the influence, which resulted in him being airlifted to hospital and in a coma.. he’s spent months off work in the summer which impacted his mental health even more than it was already.. he suffered life changing injuries and i really thought that would be a wake up call for him. But no, we then had our son and when he was born it was 6 weeks of bliss! But then it started again… I’m not sure why the binge this time lasted so long but it is awful to see someone not care about anything other than getting their next bag! The abuse I have gotten this time has been unreal and he didn’t appreciate the boundaries I set (I locked him out, away from the children) I’ve never set boundaries before.. does this help? I’m at a loss!
Reading all of your stories is frightening in how we are all in such similar situations.. I’ve been dealing with my partners cocaine addiction for 3 years now, he is currently on day 8 of a binge.. I have never sought help online before but I am really struggling with all of this in the last 6 weeks as I have also found out other things that I never thought he’d do to me. The abuse this week has been unreal. Everything is my fault. I am trying really hard to research and understand addiction so I can regulate myself in how to react when he is abusive but God, it is hard. I’m tired. I’m frightened. On edge constantly, walking on egg shells and trying to look after a Yr old and a 4 month old. I don’t really know why I’m writing this, I suppose in the hope that someone has made a success of getting help and being happy? Hope is all I am clinging on to at the moment x