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Horrendous isn’t it I’m absolutely sick of it all never dreamed of ever dealing with this x huge hugs x

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Refused to do a drug test again sick of this shit now ????

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Refused to do a drug test again sick of this shit now ????

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Mine is coming tmrw if he doesn’t take a test he isn’t seeing our son I’m so sick off it all now me barely scrapping a life all week then come Sunday I have this , I understand you wanting to bail him out but you can’t you know you can’t it’s just enabling the root of the problem they are full of excuses reasons why blaming others cos it’s easier than accepting they are the reason, I looked properly at myself in the mirror earlier and I didn’t reconize myself I looked a shadow of the person I used to be and I felt it I’m

, we are just innocent victims in this I’ll never ever understand it ever I’m barely living just existing all for some horrid white disgusting powder

Maybe yours admittance of the crack is at least a way forward for him if not with you but on his own , if I had the money I could move on but I don’t so I’m stuck in this nightmare I’ve came to realise is my life x

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Go figure I’m the problem too with my husband , absolute idiots can’t take any blame how can they want you to leave your son with a domestic abuser ? Have you tried woman’s aid

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I’m so sorry I’m still in shock too I don’t even know how to begin to get on with my life ????

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It’s selfish it effects everyone it’s a vile life destroying drug does nothing for the ego knowing they chose it over us and there family x

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Are you ok ? How’s things xx

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I replied on my post but didn’t want to leave no reply here , you are not alone we may feel broken but we are strong ladies they are just thoroughly selfish people being in our position is a lonely scary existence and what’s worse is it’s not our fault we are here x keep venting on here it helps ❤️????

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My husband was like this for 18 months before he left , snappy constantly literally making stuff up to blame me for it’s them projecting there guilt on to us or there on a come down he made me feel as small as an ant x he’s destroyed me in every way x

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Hi I’m so sorry you are in this position too it’s horrendous I’ve been left with ptsd and anxiety too I was with mine 24 years thought I knew him too , clearly not , hes left us penniless , lies slip off his tongue freely constantly I feel like I’m in this awful other world that I don’t want to be in , mines a narcissist too , gambler Also he tries to blame me for everything, I’m not sure how we even begin to get over any of it , I’ve also never took any drugs looking back now with what I know I feel stupid because it’s so clear , I can never understand how any one can choose cocaine over there family he’s lost everything, the best thing you can do is try to put yourself first , I know it’s seems impossible with no money and your life turned on it’s head , I’ve started counselling it’s helped loads I still struggle to sleep and just take it day by day x feel like I’ve wasted my whole life on this utter idiot least he done one decent thing and left so I didn’t have to live with him , he’s stole my past and my future dreams x massive hugs to you x

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It’s horrendous how many people are suffering the devastation of coke , it’s robbed me of the life I’ve knew for 24 years , it’s robbed my children of a normal family life and a secure financial one , it’s the devil , even if they do indeed recover I think the lies the betrayal are just too hard to forgive and forget im a shadow of the person I used to be and I’ve never took a drug in my life , it seeps into every aspect of your life like the filthy poison it is

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It’s horrendous how many people are suffering the devastation of coke , it’s robbed me of the life I’ve knew for 24 years , it’s robbed my children of a normal family life and a secure financial one , it’s the devil , even if they do indeed recover I think the lies the betrayal are just too hard to forgive and forget in a shadow of the person I used to be and I’ve never took a drug in my life , it seeps into every aspect of your life like the filthy poison it is

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Hiya I’m sorry to hear that I really am , I had awful Mother’s Day he just didn’t show up to see his sons , it’s just lies on top of lies , I have no idea if he’s still using bad or still where he is staying I don’t trust a word out of his mouth , I can’t move on because I’m still getting no money off him , does he think I feed his kids on Rocks ? I’ll never get over the lies but mostly the selfishness off what they doing to there own kids x I had a mini melt down too it felt like I was right back at the start again x here we are trying to just survive this when we didn’t do anything to get ourselves here , really don’t understand how being a good wife and mam all these years has Left me living like this , I’m here going through the motions but it’s just existing not living x really hope better times are on our way ladies we deserve it x

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Hun when you look back loads will make sense it does with me it’s an absolutely horrendous thing to go through we’ve been lied to and blind sided by the one person we trusted the most x

You sound like you have a sensible head on your shoulders which is amazing because I was in denial for too long which didn’t help x

I’ve read up loads on enabling etc it all makes sense , non of this is our fault tho we are living with the consequences of it daily x please come on here to vent or for advise it really does help x take care my lovely x

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