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I’m no where near there but I’m here . You guys are the victims that’s what makes me feel the worst . Just know that you cannot control this issue but you must talk to people that have been there don’t isolate . My main personally is that I have no friends no other outlook.. I lost it all.. it’s hard to find a friend at 37 honestly . Lol . And that my Achilles heal . Why bother to improve when noone cares about it or there’s no place to go to celebrate. That’s fucking hard . But I can’t die knowing I gave up
Ps if anyone thinks this message system is pointless . I’ve been clean 8 days precisely because of this forum . Never give up never back down . Addiction is the devil
I just take a small solice in that you are here to talk about how the addict feels . It’s important you know it’s not your doing it’s not your fault . My mum could have done whatever I would have found a way once your addicted that’s it it’s up to the individual to change . You mum’s are the shit honestly . You are the shining beacon that civilization needs to adhere to. I’m just a man that wants to reclaim my identity
I have never thought of myself as evil or unkind but addiction controls everything . I often think about what I could have become knowing that I was more than capable . It’s a evil cruel affliction. I wish I was not introduced but that’s life . Sending good vibes to everyone affected. I feel shameful every minute of every day
In my experience so far my attempts to quit are solely based on me . I have no reason I can pinpoint that makes it harder or easier . I feel so ashamed most days but I think it’s only in my hands and don’t think it can work any other way
Lol thanks for adopting me .
Thanks great news gives me confidence I can do it too
I’m happy he’s found . Makes me feel less guilty
I also hope you are ok I should have said that I’m sorry
I hope he is found safe and sound .
I have a cocaine addiction and had two wonderful living girlfriends who I hid this from throughout my using . I lost both and lost all friends from it . The more you lose the less likely you are to stay sober because you dwell on the things you could of had so what’s the point anymore . For anyone who has something good in there life work at you addiction then . Get them involved if you think they can cope with it . Don’t lose everything. That’s where I am . I’m on day 4 of sobriety and it’s emotional and demoralising as I have no future in sight but it’s the only way I will get anywhere so I have to go through this pain . I wish I had a partner to help but I only have my mum and she’s been hurt so bad by me it rots me inside . Please talk to people before it’s out of anyone elses hands xx
She’s happy I’m doing this forum and I am it’s something different that I’ve not really tried and it’s nice to offload and hear other people’s stories so thankyou for that guys
Thankyou xx yeah it makes me feel awful knowing that all you guys have been through hell and I’m doing the same thing to my mum and also knowing that without all the drugs I’m actually a very sensitive and caring individual . It’s been 20 years or wasted moments and wasted relationships and that’s hard to swallow . This morning it’s been four days since I last used and that is better than I’ve done for a long time . I’m struggling with sadness today and that sadness grows as each day goes by without the release of using . I think writing to you guys is helping and I’m not going to use today . I can feel that inside so that’s good but tomorrow is another struggle . We will see how I get on . Take care all you guys
I’m going to try to do the 12 steps . I’ve talked to my sister who has been told how feel and I will take it from there . I feel selfish for talking about myself as alot of the pain is on the mother’s and family’s of addicts . I wondered if anyone on here did sponsoring for addicts . In that I mean contact support via email or phone to help them through rehabilitation
Sorry to hear that Kate . It’s not something I think I will do so don’t worry . I am going to try two days without then 4 etc and keep a writtain report to show progress . I have never using in some way since I was 18 . I’m just very tired of it all now and I’m seeing my mum get old now and don’t want it to be too late for her to have some sort of normal life