Hi B don’t apologise, you are definitely not rambling, I have had the same issues with my son and I know how awful it is. I sometimes wonder if we should just say enough is enough and cut them off completely? I know some parents can do this but sometimes I think it’s the only way to have any sort of life back although I don’t know if I could do this. I feel so sorry for the heartache you are suffering and understand how scary it can be, I’ve often taken a knife to bed with me just in case. That looks awful now ive written it down. I do hope life gets better for you B x