Hi Donna,
I’m sorry you are going through this, if sounds very similar to my marriage for many years, it is very hard and you must look after yourself and I found that finding out as much information as possible helped me, I read lots of books and searched through many websites to help me deal with my chaotic life and understand what was going on. There are support groups and services out there but you have to find them, for a long time my husband would dismiss there were any problems. I too have two Children, 12 and 9 and sadly my husband spiralled into his addiction going from socially using cocaine to full blown alcoholism very quickly and he passed away at 44 in December. I went to a local support service and they helped me to start to set boundaries when we were all living together, I hope your able to find some help and your husband is able to get help too. Good luck x