[roo1992]

Please can someone tell me where and what does a coke addict actually do when they go missing on a bender are they actually just getting out their face or with other women. My partner hasn’t been home since Thursday after receiving his tax rebate and has completely blocked me. Why do they do this ? Any ex addicts on here that can answer these questions would really appreciate it.

[roo1992]

Bless you thanks for taking the time to reply I’m so sorry that you are going through this horrible experience too, but at least your husband is trying now that’s good 🙂 I totally understand though once the trust is broken it’s so so hard to trust again.

I feel like he wants to change but just can’t seem to do it it takes over there lives it’s so awful what it does to people.

The worst thing is loving the person you once knew and that person doesn’t seem to be there anymore it’s like your constantly chasing the person you fell in love with but can’t get it back sorry I hope that makes sense it’s just hard to explain it really is.

Such a waste of a life, yes I really need to break free from this awful mess but just so hard when your in it, I think I actually need help professionally I think I’m going mad some days and it’s like we keep it all bottled up I wouldn’t be able to talk to friends & family about this as they would go mad with what I’m putting up with.

Any way sorry to waffle on just feels good to be able to talk and get it out.

I really do wish you and your husband all the best for the future in his recovery and hopefully he can prove this to you both lots of love sent your way too xxx

[roo1992]

Hi Brooke how are you feeling today ? I really don’t know why we forgive them I think because we love the person they were before this horrible drug took them away from us and every day you try and fight for what you had.

I’m ok I feel lost and broken to be honest but I got to do this as I feel I am wasting so much of my time, and fed up with feeling so miserable all of the time.

Yes I can imagine how hard things must be for you especially with children involved I really do feel for you it’s so not fair on the kids or you.

I have had the exact same from him that he wants my help to be happy again but how many times can you keep doing it, and yes they always seem to blame us I think it’s because they know what they are doing is wrong and probably hate them selves for it but just want someone else to blame but it really is no ones fault but there own don’t ever blame your self! I hope your partner finds the strength to get help for you all I really know how hard it is though you take care hunni

[roo1992]

Hi Brooke714

I hope you are well, I never write or comment on here like you I just read through and never comment. Reading this just made me think of my relationship that has been on and of for 9 years due to cocaine, I have finally had enough too! His addiction has got worse over the years to the point I found out he owes a ridiculous amount of money to drug dealers. I have given him chance after chance tried helping him but there is nothing to help them I think they want a normal life but they just can’t seem to do it it’s sad it’s like you loose that person when they are on a binge, with texting escorts I had exactly the same I don’t know if this is the drugs or what I went through his emails and found that he had signed up to a site with lady Boys ! I was fuming I couldn’t believe what I was seeing he had texts come through from Babestation and god knows what else I have always asked my self is this really the drugs If you love someone would you want to hurt the woman you love? But every time I have asked him why he does it he says when you on coke you don’t think straight and you do stupid things, but god knows I split with him this Sunday just gone as I just was sick of the promises and all the lies, I don’t know if you have noticed but just changes them they are constantly angry snappy and never enjoy anything it’s so sad but an addict will always be an addict the feeling and temptation will always be there he was off it for 3 years and was the loveliest person ever if three years wasn’t enough to stop him then obviously that feeling is always there and they have to control it. In the end you drive your self crazy because you never trust them after what you know and the lies they tell. The lies got so bad on the coffee table you could see lines and white bits I said you been doing it again then and would bareface lie to me knowing I was standing there in front of him with it on my finger. It’s never ending it really drags you down I have never felt so depressed and completely lost my self one day you just think enough is enough how ever much you love them ! I’m so sorry to hear about your situation you have kids so must be so hard I don’t have any but he has 2 by 2 different women one was before we met she stopped her seeing him and the other kid was born through our our relationship!! And is now 3 and she also stopped him seeing him. The lies the cheating the no money the aggressiveness all just gets worse I can’t believe I haven’t walked away sooner I am gutted as I want my own kids one day and feel like I have wasted my best years on that looser . I really do hope you figure out what’s best for you in the end I think you just realise that they never change and you just have to put your self and your kids first and think of your happiness but you will only do it when your ready trust me I have gone back so many times but feel so different this time, thinking of you as I know how hard and horrible things can be always here if you need to chat

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