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I honestly dont know how you are all doing this time and time again it fills me with dread. Although i didnt believe for a second it was as easy as ok i give up, reading your storys of 3 4 5 chances and relapses!! My god well done to you all strong gals here amoung us ????????.

I for one cant and wont be doing this again im litrally traumatised knowing the truth.(i suppose you all said the same at my stage). As badly as i pushed for it them answers, it was way worse than i expected to hear. It hurt me way deeper than i ever imagined.

The moral difference alone is just everest to me its discusting im a brutally honest person, who has no time for drugs the scene or anyone/thing like that. We have been hoodwinked and its a terrible realization ????. Their truth litrally whips ours from under us.

Im with my partner 21 years im 39 more than half my life ! and i dont believe a single thing that has happened in that time anymore. I feel like im betraying myself and everything i am keeping him around. But yet hes still here its very hard even when you know you really want to wash your hands of them.

So well done to all you walkers i hope you all catch a break xx and they stayers to lol cant forget abt us

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Honestly smile1 i have never felt more a fool in my life but more fool them because when you cheat and lie to good reliable people it always comes bk to you.

You have done the hard part and cut him loose. Your better off money wise something i know i would be myself if alone. But that peace you speak of is priceless im actually jelous a little . Boy oh boy do i long peace how anyone can continue such behaviors whilst ruining the people they claim to love. I dont think i will ever come to terms with that or forgive.

So go you for choosing yourself xx

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I honestly dont know how you are all doing this time and time again it fills me with dread. Although i didnt believe for a second it was as easy as ok i give up, reading your storys of 3 4 5 chances and relapses!! My god well done to you all strong gals here amoung us ????????.

I for one cant and wont be doing this again im litrally traumatised knowing the truth.(i suppose you all said the same). As badly as i pushed for it, it was way worse than i expected to hear. It hurt me way deeper than i ever imagined.

The moral difference alone is just everest to me its discusting im a brutally honest person, who has no time for drugs the scene or anyone/thing like that. We have been hoodwinked and its a terrible realization ????.

Im with my partner 21 years im 39 more than half my life ! and i dont believe a single thing that has happened in that time anymore. I feel like im betraying myself and everything i am keeping him around. But yet hes still here its very hard even when you know you really want to wash your hands of them.

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Im watching put down the shovel i really like her thanks x

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Did you partners cheat girls to me asking for her phone number is cheating and i cant support him with his drug issues over this i just cant i feel like saying go to her let her help with this becauae i have had enough

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Fayzey its a nightmare such selfish people. You say hes moved out where is your partner now are his family good my fellas family may aswell not exsist. So if i put him out i do wonder where the hell he will go? Dont feel guilty about asking him to leave you have to protect yourself and you gave him enough chances. Do you feel better in your self now hes gone?? Exactly i can not see it been so simple to give up in that case why are we in this situatation in the first place!! Sick of having to question every word he says its draining. Hes full of sorrow and tears but to be honest i think thats more to do with cocaine leaving his system than it is what hes been doing here to me.

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Thank you both for your replys im sorry yous are been put threw this!!

I also think he should seek professional help. (But i want him to go off his own back surely if he were serious this would be the first thing he would do ?) I never dreamt someone else actions could effect me so much. I feel its all to much to forgive i am not GOD the gaslighting and attacks became an everyday thing. Trying to convince me to go the doctor and get tablets as ” i am totally nuts and paroniod” i feel he crossed over from drugs to abuse and i just cant seem to shift that feeling. Its so hard to actually tell people whats been going its embarassing the shame so im glad i found this forum. Another thing if he seeks help will they involve child services this is something im terrified of if one parent presents them self as a drug user is it automatic that they involve the services ? I will have a look at the services for myself as usual its all been about him best of luck girls xx

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