Hello Theresa, thank you for sharing your story and all the rollercoaster of emotions that are associated with the situation. I can empathise with your feelings of being his mum and the horror of uncertainty if you knew he hadn’t anywhere to stay. I have had similar experiences myself and was living in a constant state of fear and panic and worry. There is no magic wand and after several years, I found the strength to say goodbye although that remains a permanent wound also. It is vital that you take care of yourself, this situation engulfs your whole life and ultimately destroys you. It is amazing that some addicts recover and that is always a ray of hope. There is also the chance that by constantly supporting and sorting things out is actually enabling the person to continue with their addictions. I don’t have a magic answer. I hope it offers some source of comfort to know that you are not alone in your experiences.
