Hello again everyone. Oh the nightmare and catastrophic effects of addiction! My heart is permanently in pain due to what has been lost due to my son’s alcoholism. The stories of your shared pain and experiences reflect alot of my own experiences. For years I have dealt with the abuse/lying etc etc etc that comes with it all and I was being destroyed more and more. Part of me is permanently frozen in an attempt to keep it all on a hidden shelf in my mind and to retain a level of sanity/peace of mind. Please take care of yourselves. I spent years hoping and praying and pleading with no effect. I have visited prison, attended child protection conferences and had police calling at my home at all times. I have been permanently living on the edge. I somehow found the strength to say ‘goodbye’ to my son although that breaks my heart. I won’t say anymore, all too painful. I love my son but I was being totally destroyed and enabling him at every turn. I continue to have hope but on a much more realistic level. Please take care and remember that we are all in this together, that offers some crumb of comfort in the nightmare that others understand. Night
