Great to hear that the situation is promising for your son right now Lindyloo. As you say, it is very important to stay positive. The permanent misery and fear and heartache associated with my son’s addiction was ultimately destroying me and I was a shell of a human being. I somehow found the strength(unsure if that is the most appropriate word) to say goodbye although my heart remains permanently seeped in sadness and despair . When my son was in my life, I was being abused and my actions were enabling him. I was hoping and praying that the decision to say goodbye would provide an opportunity for him to address the nightmare consequences of his addiction but recent information that I have indirectly received strongly suggests that hasn’t happened. I had made clear to my son that the door was open to be in my life again if he addressed his addiction. Truly horrible things were happening that left me permanently scared and living on the edge. WE are talking over 2 decades here. I go to bed with it stirring in my mind and I wake up with the same feelings. Truly horrible but I need to take care of myself. Like many others on this forum, I look at all the things I may or may not have done to cause the situation. What to say or do??? To all the people who have shared their anguish and pain on this forum, please take care of yourselves. Be kind to yourselves also. Moment by moment. Peace to you all when you are able to grab it
