Welcome to this part of the forum. I post very occasionally as frankly I am not very good with words and am just learning how to deal with episodes as they crop up. When I first found out my son was taking heroin and crack cocaine I’ve found it absolutely and utterly devastating, a terrible black hole and if I’m honest shook me to my core. Everything that had historically happened sort of made sense and was text book drugs just getting worse and worse and worse. When it came out in the open all hell broke loose, but it also bonded close family members together also. We have become a protector group – we communicate when money is asked for, we confirm facts and check up on his welfare, we know when he is AWOL, we know when he has taken drugs and fallen off the wagon. It happens about every two to three months at the mo, we have learnt to deal with the ‘big dips’ and try to ‘coast the big waves’. He now knows that he can also get back to a sort of normal after these glitches, he knows there will be many more glitches in his life, he knows the tools to help him and we, as his family know that a lot is up to him, it’s his life and it’s his choice. We do love him and he also knows that, but we also have our lives to live and lead. We deal with it, like we have to deal with everything in life – good or bad. I’ve told certain family members and talk matter of factly, i break down if I’ve had a drink, I’m so light weight it’s not that often! I hope he gives up one of these days. My dark days are more…..dark brown these days. Look after yourself during the Storm, look after him. Wishing u kindness, and hope and know we all are in the same boat. Halo xx
