Welcome to this forum Pambler and thank you for sharing your honest thoughts.
Kate1, I cannot find any words to acknowledge how you provide support and strength to this forum, despite the indescribable pain of losing your son to suicide. What can I say that would ever make it easier for you?
I gain strength for all on this forum and hope that it offers some peace to others too. There are similar themes and experiences running through all our stories.
I have been feeling particularly sad recently and need to reboot myself to get in a gear that gives me a peaceful state of mind. Something to minimise the emotional rollercoaster of it all; love/hate/despair/sadness/regret/hopelessness to name afew. I must go now. Love, peace and hope to us all.