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I found my son dead this morning. He hung himself. I love him and I couldn’t help him. I keep thinking what I could should have done. Why wasn’t I there. Keep your addicts close. Love them whatever they do
kate1ParticipantI know exactly how you feel. It has got to much for me at the moment and I am off work with stress. Not all down to my son but he hasn’t helped. I have now paid his rent a debt and his train fare for work. He happily strips me clean of cash and I have told him if he doesn’t pull his self round this time I need to walk away for my own sanity. I think this time he sees how ill I am feeling and that I mean what I say. I sometimes hate him god help me. That makes me feel bad saying that but he is distroying not only his life but mine. I live in fear of what dealers might do to him but he is bringing this on himself. Life should be good I’m nearing retirement instead I’m spending my money on his bills food travel
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kate1ParticipantMakes me sick how the dealers can just reach them where ever they are. Leaches
kate1ParticipantI sometimes think if something happened to my son in some ways it would be a release but I would always question if I did enough. I know I can’t do any more than I’m doing. I do sometimes wonder if it’s my fault he is like this. Did it start when his dad and I split. Is it because his dad is an idiot and wants nothing to do with his children. No one will ever know. There’s no point trying to beat ourselves up. The bottom line is they are ill. They can’t help it. Our anger should be directed to the scummy dealers
kate1ParticipantSusan yes. I think everyone does. My son is absolutely foul when he’s under the influence. He only wants me for money and when he doesn’t get it he calls me all sorts of things he also blocks me but it only lasts till he wants something. Everyone tells me to let him lose everything but this month once again I prevented him losing his job and home. I ha e told him this is the last time and I do mean it. We all fear they will be found dead but what can we do
kate1ParticipantOh what a nightmare for you. I can only say stay with this group you will get good support. You are not alone although you may feel you are. Until they are ready to stop there’s nothing you can do. I’m sure you keep a close eye on the children. It’s so heartbreaking. My son is a Coke addict his partner took the children and left thank god. Leaves me to struggle on with him but at least I don’t have to worry about the children. Hold onto this support. Love to you x
kate1ParticipantIt’s a difficult situation I think although we love them at some point you have to put yourself first this is my second week off work I can’t blame it all on my son my workload is very demanding but he tipped the balance this week he seems to be sorting himself again though he can still be rude. He got a call from the drs. Don’t know if you recall I had to call for ambulance last week but he refused to go. He is going for blood tests and X-ray. I feel a bit unemotional about it he has abused his body so badly. Maybe this will be his wake up call. Who knows I do know I feel at the end of the road with it all. I would like peace
kate1ParticipantThat’s the heartbreaking thing it’s someone’s son or daughter. They may not know what has become of them or even if they are alive. I never stop and give money but I do offer a cup of tea and a sandwitch or something. It’s just no more than I would wish someone would do for my son if he were in that position god forbid
kate1ParticipantI’ve had bad time recently with him and he seems to be making an effort again. I have lost confidence that he can change now but time will tell
kate1ParticipantSo very sorry ivy. This is my biggest fear for my son they really must be in such deep despair to try to end it. My son has taken two overdoses. I feel so ill with it all I cam only imagine how you feel. Sometimes I really wish I had never given birth to him I know how awful that sounds that’s at the low points but I love him so much it hurts me to see him in this state.
kate1ParticipantThank you
kate1ParticipantIsn’t that appalling. There is nowhere to turn my son only went to hospital because the crisis team said they would pick him up and help
kate1ParticipantOn reflection I should have put in a complaint. Ignorant man but you feel low enough don’t you
kate1ParticipantMy son has tried to kill himself twice last time just after Christmas. He wouldn’t go to hospital but the crisis team persuaded him to saying they would see him. He was discharged at 3 in the morning when I called the crisis team I was spoken to really rudely by a man who shouted down the phone “your son doesn’t have a mental health problem, he’s a drug addict “. I think I realised then there was no help
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