[tanga8]

Yeah he keeps saying it’s not the drugs he just doesn’t love me anymore that he hasn’t changed he seems fine with others just me but the others he’s with all take it. He is still here but makes it very obvious he doesn’t want to be even asking me last nite if I had anywhere to go so he didn’t have to sit with me. Said we will have a conversation on the second may this is the day he says he’s leaving. Said it’s not about the kids it’s me but he’s not bothering much about them either just fakes it with them. Just makes me wonder if it is his drugs doing it or if it just gives him the guts to say what he really feels

 

[tanga8]

It’s truly awful he’s ended it with me has said some truly awful things and what hurts the most he’s carrying on as if a 22 yrs relationship meant nothing to him I feel like the biggest piece of crap

 

[tanga8]

<p style=”text-align: left;”>So much of this makes sense. I really wish I knew if my partner really doesn’t care about me or our family of if it’s the coke doing it it’s like he has no emotion or feeling towards me watsoever but seems fine with others</p>

[tanga8]

Hey I would really love to know the answer to this also feels like my whole life is falling apart questioning why I’m not enough for my partner whether he still loves me or if it’s coke turning him into a stranger I love him so much but I’m scared something will happen him he barely sleeps barely eats dunno how he is with his drug friends but Wen he does be home it’s like he doesn’t want to be here

[tanga8]

U have been really helpful we have been together 21 yrs since we were late teens two kids aged 15 and 17 he has been my rock our whole time together. I did know he took drugs on and off weed every day but v v rarely coke. My life has went from being normal one day to feeling like I’m outside looking in at a stranger’s life. My anxiety and stress levels are threw the roof he doesn’t come straight home from work is a nightmare to get up for work, can’t get him to do a single thing in the house and dare u question if he loves u or still wants to be here and yes I do sound like a nag with him. I’m fully aware that he takes it so don’t understand why he says he’s one place but is actually in another ignores my calls Wen he’s there but answers when he’s were he said he is sometimes. I’ve told him I’m scared he will cheat he keeps saying that’s one thing I will never have to worry about well I didn’t think I’d have to worry about watching the man I love fade in front of my eyes my hearts broke I don’t Wana leave him I don’t even think he would care, I feel so boring as I don’t take coke myself even felt like doing a line even tho I’m petrified of the stuff just to make him want to spend time wit me but I quickly wised up

[tanga8]

Feel so much like crap is it normal for someone on coke to lie even about stupid little things. My partner has lied this past 2 nites about were he is I’ve seen were the car has been but can’t bring myself to confront him cos it just ends with the u don’t trust me speech but ATM there’s nothing to trust I know he uses just seems like he would rather be anywere else but here and I’ve never felt more alone and unwanted

 

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